A new map

The other day I saw a Facebook post with a drawing of what Trump's wall between the U.S. and Mexico would look like. Instead of going straight across from West to East it removed New Mexico from the United States. It certainly caused a variety of  reactions from me, since I live here.

The very first thing I asked myself was, Did Trump even go to school or is he just plain stupid? Even grade school students know we have been part of the United States since 1912. We do house many Native American and Spanish (some people call them Mexican) residents. Our state has been called a melting pot of nationalities. It has also been called God's country and God forsaken. Take your pick.

When my second husband, my sons and I arrived here in 1976 my grandmother thought we had moved to a foreign country. I was kind of wondering the same thing when we first lived in New Laguna, just a touch outside of the Laguna Indian Reservation. My first observation of Native Americans was that they were a lazy bunch of people. It did change to a more positive opinion as time went on. After three years and the birth of our daughter we moved 30 miles west to Grants, NM. BTW that child has some Laguna blood from her father.

I kept looking at the map that appeared on my FB newsfeed and wondered if it would be a good or bad thing to succeed from the U.S. More than one state is thinking of going in that direction. In my case it probably wouldn't be such a good idea because it would wipe out my income from Social Security, which I have earned over a lifetime.

Perhaps the most I can hope for is that the POTUS will wise up or be replaced before his map becomes real.

Funny how the mind works. That statement just reminded me of a poem titled "Outwitted" by Edwin Markham that I have treasured since I was in high school and I will end this post by sharing it.

He drew a circle that shut me out. 
Heretic, rebel, a thing to flout.
But love and I had the wit to win:
We drew a circle that took him in.

Mirror mirror on the wall

Today I am re-posting something I shared on my Facebook wall this morning. It is the definition of a person who has a narcissistic personality disorder. I have a relative who fits this description very well. If she only had a mirror she could see herself. There is no need for further explanation from me.

 From the Mayo Clinic web site:

"Narcissistic personality disorder is a mental disorder in which people have an inflated sense of their own importance, a deep need for admiration and a lack of empathy for others. But behind this mask of ultra confidence lies a fragile self-esteem that's vulnerable to the slightest criticism."

"A narcissistic personality disorder causes problems in many areas of life, such as relationships, work, school or financial affairs. You may be generally unhappy and disappointed when you're not given the special favors or admiration you believe you deserve. Others may not enjoy being around you, and you may find your relationships unfulfilling."

It's all about money

After viewing the photos of the massive Women's Marches that took place yesterday I was wondering just what I could do to help the cause.What the new administration is trying to do is horrible, but what can you expect from a bunch of billionaires? They don't live in the real world.

I saw a suggestion about sending postcards to the Senate expressing thoughts about our individual concerns. Thinking about that I couldn't figure out what my main concerns are. The only things that really concern me at my age are Social Security and Medicare. I read a post about privatizing Medicare. You're kidding right?

This year Medicare is already a joke. We got a $4.00 raise, the deductible went up from $147 to $186 and the monthly premium went up from $104 to $134. But hey we got a $4.00 cost of living raise. Yay!

So I signed my name to the online petition to stop the move to privatize Medicare. Perhaps it will help I thought. Then  the next thing to come on the screen was- Would you do one more thing? Contribute at least $10 to this fund. Are you serious?  Absolutely not!

So Mr. President if you want my backing just keep your freaking hands off of Social Security and Medicare it has nothing to do with you. With your money you don't need it, but there are a hell of a lot of people who depend on the meager amount they are given.

I raised a first class bitch

A couple of days ago I found a large envelope in my mail box addressed to my married daughter with my address on it. This has not been her address since she graduated from high school in 1997. It isn't unusual for me to occasionally get mail  for people who have never lived in my house. Usually I just toss it, especially if the person is deceased.

I kept looking at this envelope because it was from Prudential, the insurance company where my ex-husband had a life insurance policy. I had assumed  the money had been sent to my daughter as he died four months ago and even though I was the beneficiary they were not giving it to me. Unfair or not that's just the way it was. Insurance companies can get by with a lot nowadays.

Tossing the envelope was an option but I decided to open it to see if it was just junk or something important. As it turned out it was something that needed her attention. They apparently had been trying to reach her and needed her to return a requested form. so they could close the account. If they didn't hear from her by a certain date the money would be put into an unclaimed policy fund.

I immediately hand delivered the envelope to her house with a note explaining why I had opened it.

Always looking for something to blame me for she had a fit because it had been opened.

If she wasn't such a self centered person she would have thanked me for giving her a heads up. If it had been my intention to keep her from getting the money I would have tossed the mail and she would never have known that she was about to miss out on a large chunk of cash.

Someday karma will catch up to her.

Out of my hands

I had no intention of listening to or viewing any part of the inaugural proceedings this morning, but apparently someone had a different plan.

I had a chiropractic appointment first thing this morning to try to get my neck to stay in alignment. If you missed an earlier post it is apparently the reason I have been having some weird symptoms like light hotheadedness. This morning the adjustment left me feeling a bit strange, but I knew I had to pick up a couple of items at the grocery store.in case the snow continued. So I forced myself.

On the way home I tried to tune my car radio to a station with calming music. This is when an unseen source took over. The only station I could get featured Rush Limbaugh and the inaugural proceedings. Pence had just been sworn in and the swearing in of the 45th president of the United States was next.

I left the dial where it was and listened to a beautiful version of God Bless America, sung by the Mormon Tabernacle Choir..As my car headed into my driveway the swearing in of President Donald John Trump began. Oddly, I had a feeling of peace. Perhaps I was simply following the direction of an entity with a lot more power than I had.   

 

Respect vs. disrespect

Talking to a person that I have a great deal of respect for, I said that I didn't understand what the protest marches were proving. In my opinion they are a waste of time and money. The response from the other person was, "the marches are sending a very loud NO!" After digesting that I can see his point. The marches, assuming nobody gets injured or killed, are simply a way of expressing an opinion of an event that could possibly interfere with our country's well being..

I'm not involved in politics, but like a very large portion of Americans I am greatly concerned about our future leader. He has got to be the most disrespectful being I have ever come across. If I were one of his children I would be totally embarrassed. I feel very sorry for his youngest son, who is not old enough to stand up for himself and express his thoughts. Parents are supposed to be positive role models for their children. In this family all I see is a generation of brainwashed souls.

The question I am dealing with this morning is- when you intentionally call a person every dirty name in the book ( not sure what that book would be) in retaliation for what he spreads around is that respect or are you  just adding to the general disrespect in you own way?

As I have written in the past, I cannot respect this man. On the other hand I am not willing at this point to disrespect him. My only tool is to express my opinion through my blog which is exactly what I am doing this morning.

Attitude is adjustable

In trying to decide what was causing my latest health issue I had to go back in time and rethink what has been going on in my life lately. Mainly finding the reason for my light headedness, headaches and blood pressure problem, all of which were causing serious anxiety symptoms. Did I miss something I wondered?

Although my blood pressure had come down over the last couple of days I was still suffering from the other problems, mostly a very stiff neck. Nothing I tried fixed this problem. I even blamed the new glasses I had been trying to get used to. That was a wrong assumption because I hadn’t worn them for a few days and still had the disturbing symptoms. 

Yesterday, still trying to collect pertinent facts, I told my primary care person that I thought it was due to all the negative energy out there in the universe. I am aware that some people absorb energy from others so the thought wasn’t that farfetched. I am aware that I do have some spiritual gifts. Everyone does.

Noting this morning that even after taking a muscle relaxant last night I still could not relax my neck. Realizing there was one more option I could try, which I had put off as a last resort, I made an appointment with my chiropractor. It had been almost two years since I had an adjustment. Fortunately I was able to be seen this morning. 

Intuition is a wonderful thing when one does not ignore the shove!

My neck was so far out of alignment that the doctor believed it was interfering with the blood flow to my head/brain, thus causing the problems I was having.  After the adjustment and ultrasound therapy on my neck I felt a world of difference. I have another appoint on Friday and you better believe I will keep it.

Blame is adjustable after you consider ALL the facts.

I’m thinking that possibly this thought could apply to the president elect. I have come to the conclusion he honestly believes he can make positive changes in our government, but his method is just deplorable. He reminds me of a bull in a china closet. You have to pick your battles. 

He also reminds me of a local female who managed to get elected to our City Council several years ago. She began her term of office thinking she could change everything that she felt was wrong with our city government. As a result, nobody listened to her and she accomplished very little.  

Not only do you need all the facts, but you need to be able to adjust your attitude and strive for balance.

An interesting morning

I didn't sleep well last night and woke feeling rather strange. I had a follow up doctor's appointment yesterday to touch base on my recent spinal CT scan, which concluded that I have spinal stenosis. It is no longer causing pain, but my provider is still strongly suggesting a sciatic block. I believe it is way too early and have said no. Something happened to cause my blood pressure to be high and I ended up having it taken three times during my visit. It finally came down to an acceptable level, but I am still having trouble figuring out why that happened. It had been doing great.

This morning I decided I had better check it out and was startled when it was even higher than yesterday. To make a long story short my son ended up taking me to the ER. I was really afraid I was going to have a heart attack, stroke or be admitted to the hospital.

You know that saying about worrying about things that may never happen? Well that was me this morning because it was even higher when I arrived at the ER. Higher than it had ever been in my life as far as I know. As it turned out it was an anxiety attack according to the attending doctor, whose first question to me was, "What are you upset about?"

I listed a couple of things that were causing stress and then added and Trump! I thought it was a joke until I realized it was probably truer than I realized. There has been so much negative energy floating around since the election that is is quite possible I "inhaled" some of it. It's really very hard to avoid the mess the country is in at the moment and not worry about the future.

I don't see anything anyone can do about what will happen less than a week from now. In my opinion protest marches are the biggest waste of time and money that anyone has come up with. Although it is very hard to ignore the negative energy that is everywhere, for my own well being I am going to do just that.

Even though the morning might have been interesting, I have no intention of a repeat performance.

A Sacred Message

Today while reading a copy of my Amazon Kindle book, Journey of an Enlightened Egotist I ran across a section that was so appropriate for current events I could not resist sharing so here it is:

While gathering (spirit) stories a man named Gabriel called me saying he was interested in my project. We talked about concepts that we seemed to share and he indicated that he had a project of his own involving spiritual energy that he wanted to tell me about.

The next morning he came to my house accompanied by his wife and two children. Within minutes of arriving he put a pair of divining rods into my hands and began trying to convince me that I could use them to communicate with God.

In addition to the rods I was holding, he and his wife and two year old son were demonstrating how to use the ones they were holding. It reminded me of a three ring circus, pieces of metal swinging in every direction. I later decided the man would have made a good TV evangelist or a used car salesman.

Because he was so "good" at what he was promoting, I admit I was briefly convinced that what he was telling me was true. That is until I received a telepathic message from my Creator, reminding me that we already have a one on one connection and therefore I have no need for anything or anyone else to speak for me. All I have to do is talk directly to God and listen quietly for the reply.


Reflecting on the incident caused me to realize how easy it is to be taken in by frauds who claim to have all the answers. The only defense against unscrupulous characters like Gabriel is a strong personal belief system.

A personal stage

Much is being said about the man who will apparently be the next president. Nasty things are being tossed out into the universe by both those for and against his election. Let me state right from the beginning of this post that he will never ever be my president. It is impossible for me to have any respect for someone who is capable of spewing so much hatred. I believe karma will eventually take care of the situation and that something unexpected will happen on January 20th, 2017. What that is I actually have no idea. 

My post  today is with celebrities who think because they have a stage they can use it to mouth off and say whatever they choose. Those who have money and power have never impressed me. I am impressed by how people treat others not by their material possessions.

I have a problem with anyone who tries to sway another just because they believe their own publicity. If it wasn't for the advances in electronics very few would even know who these people are!

 From my little stage these are my thoughts on the current events that are in the news. Agree or not that is your right.

Retweeted

 I don't know exactly what tweeted means let alone retweeted, but the following is a post I wrote on January 14th 2013. It keeps popping up and today I took the time to read what I wrote. I am impressed! I am so impressed I decided to re-post the message, believing that much of what I write is prompted by an unseen source. I did remove a tiny bit because I am not sure if it is still true today. So here goes and I hope it is enjoyable:

I'm beginning this post with a quote I recently found. "Miracles happen when fear is replaced by love". Sometimes you just have to say what you have to say and let the chips fall where they will. Today I want to talk about soulmate connections.
At one time I believed that a person only has one soulmate. I was wrong. We have many soulmates who come into our lives at various points. They are often present to help us deal with a serious problem, offer moral support in times of crisis or simply to encourage us to move past where we are and grow. They are sometimes close relatives, but most often are friends. It was once explained to me that these souls were the closest to us when we were first created. They come back life after life in different roles, as we all do. During my life I have had many soulmate experiences and I value them all.
Moving on up between earth and the angels we find the very special connection of souls who were created as twin flame soulmates. They are said to be two halves of a whole. That doesn't mean that they are running around with only half a body/mind. That would be pretty silly. It means that they are as closely connected as two souls can be. If you think of it in terms of human twins created in the same sac in the same womb it makes sense. For the most part they both have all the body parts necessary to live a human life on their own.
It is rare that twin flame soulmates live a human life at the same time. When this happens the energy usually cannot be ignored. Even though they lead separate lives, have different opinions, a different purpose in being alive etc. there is something very special that they posses that sets them apart from all other soulmate relationships. That very special something is their humongous love connection. Again it has nothing to do with body parts of any kind. Well, okay with the exception of the heart.
These beings, when perfectly connected, often use telepathy to communicate. They have no need for electronic devices of any kind. They are able to read each others minds with no effort at all. I personally believe that this unique ability is to aid in some kind of universal assignment that they are to carry out while on earth. I could be wrong, of course. It's just a guess based on my own experience.
 
Well my dear readers the reason I chose this subject to write about today is because I firmly believe that I have connected with my twin flame soulmate. The current connection began about three years ago and has just escalated to the point where I can no longer be deterred from my original belief. Perhaps both souls needed time to grow. What will happen next is yet to be determined and I am quite aware that the outcome is not entirely in my hands.
I will leave you with the thought I began with, "Miracles happen when fear is replaced by love."

Authors note: Perhaps the rest of that quote should be: Miracles happen when fear is replaced by love; God is love and when we love we are like him/her.

Time to disconnect

I knew it was coming, but when was the question. In dealing with the government one must be patient! That's a word that has always been difficult for me to handle. Today the mail brought me official word that I no longer qualify for help from Medicaid. For the last year my income has been so low that the Income Support Division has been paying my Medicare premium. Although it has been helpful I am very happy that has come to an end.

My ex-husband's recent death brought my Social Security income up past the point of qualifying for further Medicaid assistance.Yay! I'm sure some people would ask if I am crazy. My answer would be- no I am not. I want to take care of myself by myself without having to account for every penny that I have in my possession to a government agency. That's nobody's business but mine!

It may still take Social Security another month to catch up with the news, according to a very nice agent I recently talked to, but that's alright. I will either be paying my own premium next month or not. At least the wait is over and I have official word in writing that I am now disconnected from Medicaid.

I'm free!

What's the trouble?

It has been a day of interesting answers to the question- what's the trouble?

First thing this morning I kept my appointment with my trusty physical therapist to get his take on my recent spinal CT scan. I am so happy I took the official result write up so he could get a good picture of what is going on. I was diagnosed with canal stenosis along with some other less pertinent issues. I was really anxious to see what my PT had to say and get his opinion of what to do about the problem.

He agreed it was too early for anything drastic, especially when I told him the pain etc. I had been having from the sciatic nerve had pretty much gone away. As soon as I found out the problem I had gone back to exercising more, using some excercises that I had been given for my hip replacement recovery over a year ago. I also added one I found online, which apparently helped the situation.

So this morning after a through examination we decided the best approach for now was to exercise. I left with a dozen to do, some new some old. I was told that exercises for the hip and lower back are interchangeable. In addition my pelvis was way out of alignment, which no doubt added to my discomfort. I have a follow-up appointment with him next week. In the meantime I will follow his instructions and do the exercises. Hey that's a whole lot better than a shot or surgery!

My next interesting- what's the trouble experience came when I was leaving Walmart. I kept hearing a strange noise between ding ding and a click. Good grief now what I thought. At first I thought perhaps a turn signal was stuck. I moved this and that, making sure everything was off and I still heard the sound. At least twice I accidentally turned on the window washer. I didn't need that!

I pulled out the owners manual to see if I could figure out what was going on. I couldn't locate the place I was looking for. I finally decided it was what I was calling the trouble light. Giving up I drove home, which wasn't far. I parked in the driveway, got out of the car and saw that both the back and front "trouble" lights were blinking. I turned off the car and they were still going strong. Did I really need this today? No!

I took the manual into the house and finally found what I was looking for. Well dang they are called hazard lights! The picture in the book gave me a picture of where the switch is located. My car is a 2005 and I have never had any reason to use this feature. I went out and took care of the problem. The car is now in the garage not causing me any more frustration.

Actually I am happy that I had the good sense to take care of both problems using my own brain and following my intuition.

It's here

It's here- the new year!

It wasn't anything special in my house. I went to bed a little past the normal time and briefly woke to the sound of fireworks at midnight. Exciting huh? The new year just slid into place, exactly as it should.

I do have a new attitude though. I am tired of living in fear that something horrible is going to happen. It seems as if I have been holding my breath my entire life. How stupid is that? Granted not so nice things have happened to me, but so far I have survived.

I have all that I need; a comfortable home, food, clothes, friends, fairly good health and enough funds to take care of anything that comes up.

There is only one thing I need to work on and that is eliminating the fear that is keeping me from believing that everything is going to be just fine.

When I remember all I have survived so far it is ridiculous to spend my time worrying about what might happen in the future. I have lived through a smorgasbord of experiences that would make some souls crumble and I am still hanging on.   

The new year is here and with it comes a new chance to stop fearing things that may never happen and spend my life enjoying that I have one.