Monday, September 16, 2019

Call it like it is

After writing the previous post I was inspired to ask the members of my writing group, "Write On", to come up with synonyms for the word fake. They did not disappoint me. The following is what they wrote.

In-genuine, unreal, two faced, illusory, pseudo, sham, imitation, bogus and deceptive.

I also have a few more of my own: fraud, phony, forgery, copy, hoax, reproduction and rip-off.

If the shoe fits, my ex-friend, please feel free to wear it.

Sunday, September 15, 2019

Changed direction

It was the spring of 1999 and I had one thought on my mind. I desperately wanted to stop smoking. I hated the habit and was not even sure why I had picked it up almost forty years earlier. Perhaps I was looking for a best friend, having grown up lonely.

On this day I walked into a health food store that I had never entered before. I don't even remember what I was looking for. Inside I found a dark man, wearing a cowboy hat. He was the only person in the establishment. I later found out he and his partner owned it. We began talking as he offered me a cappuccino. I eventually told him about my desire to stop a disgusting habit. I told him I had tried everything with no luck. He informed me he was a hypnotist and could help with my desire if I was willing.

After leaving the store I thought about his proposal. I knew almost nothing about hypnosis at that time. A few days later I called and made an appointment to take him up on his suggestion. To make a long story short, I never had the desire to smoke again. It has now been over twenty years.

Meeting this man changed the direction of my life. Most people would probably admit he was a bit strange and some might even say they were afraid of him. I will always be grateful to him for changing the direction of my life. Because of him I began a twenty year period of personal evolvement. I began removing negative aspects from my life, which allowed me to connect with the spiritual side. Some of his favorite expressions were: "think about it and rise above it". After several years the universe gave us a unique experience which allowed us both to move on in peace.

Nine years ago I met another man through Facebook. He was also a bit strange and was part of a "religious" group that has a very negative reputation. He is a Scientologist. Oddly, he also wore a cowboy hat. For some reason I compared the two men. They both seemed to have spiritual knowledge that attracted me to them. The second one had a very bad habit of being very critical of everything I wrote and said. It reminded me of my mother. I put up with it for many years until the day I finally realized he was simply a fake. He had been put into my life to teach me to stand up for myself and what I believe.

So now my life is once again going in a different direction- alone and completely free. I hope!

Saturday, September 14, 2019

The end

Wow sometimes I just have to wonder about the people my soul has picked out for me to know. There is one especially that has been dangling around my life for about ten years. We have had an on again off again relationship over that period. Many things have happened to lead me to believe that the person is not who I have thought he is. Over time he has demonstrated that he is a very self centered narcasistic being. Did I listen- hell no!

He just celebrated his birthday a couple of days ago. Checking on his Facebook wall I noticed that only one friend of his bothered to send him wishes. I found that interesting as he always comes across as a very important person. Well he thinks he is anyway. I usually get well over thirty birthday wishes from my FB friends. I began to feel sorry for him.

I decided to do something nice just because I could. I emailed him an amazing photo I recently took because I thought he would appreciate it. His reaction was, "got it-thanks".

I asked myself, "Why did I even bother?"

It finally dawned on me that we are not now and never will be on the same page, at least not in this lifetime.

I wish him well, but he is one of the things I am dropping as the energy of the new harvest moon comes around. It is finally the end!

Saturday, September 7, 2019

Determination

For two days I have heard a strange static noise in my office. It was driving me crazy! This morning I was determined to find out what it was.

I checked the window. No, nothing outside the room.

I checked the floor vent to see if I could hear water. No, nothing there. Thank God! I had just had a $200 plumbing bill for a leak in that end of the house.

I finally turned off my computer to see if that was the problem. Nope, the noise was still there!

What else could be causing it? I finally realized it was a small radio I had not turned off. It wasn't on a station so it was just making a static noise. Off, I turned it off!

Problem solved, with determination.

Thursday, September 5, 2019

Water water

Apparently we don't always get what we think is coming. My four day vacation has not turned out as I had planned.

After checking with the water department yesterday morning the visit verified that I have another water leak. Wonderful, just what I needed!

The first thing I did after arriving back home was to turn off the water. Except for about two minutes it has been shut off ever since. I am waiting for the plumber to find the newest leak. I am actually grateful that my son left for his vacation yesterday morning. He hates to be put out and does not care to cooperate when something like this happens. Through the years I have learned to go without when necessary.

I am patiently waiting for my trusted plumber to arrive so at least my water problem can return to normal. 

Tuesday, September 3, 2019

Vacation time

My son leave tomorrow morning for a 4 day vacation in another state. What am I going to do you might ask? Pretty much anything I want. I get a vacation too, so to speak! I don't have to cook because I have been freezing leftovers. I can concentrate on dealing with the foot pain the universe has decided I need to experience.

The only thing I need to do for anyone else is to pick up a friend to exercise Wednesday and Friday. I can do that.

It will be rather nice to have the house to myself for a few days. I might or might not attack the remaining weeds in my back yard. Depends on how I feel.

Vacation time here I come!

Saturday, August 31, 2019

Thank you

When you do something nice for someone and they do not even bother to acknowledge the gesture it says something about both the giver and the receiver. I was raised to say thank you and I am wondering if it is a lost art.

I have had so many experiences regarding this simple fact it isn't even funny. How hard are those two little words to utter?

I know that once a gift is given it belongs to the giver, but come on! How long would it take to simply acknowledge it?

That's my rant for today. Enjoy your holiday weekend!