Family holidays

We are almost in that part of the year that I dislike the most- family holidays. I suppose I would look forward to it if I actually had a family who cared. I almost have none. To make up for that I try to give to others. I have Christmas cards ready for the residents of our local Good Sam Center, I  have given baby caps and blankets to the hospital maternity room and donated a couple of adult beanies to the community. It helps, but it isn't enough. I wish I had the money to do more, but I don't.

I know the next few weeks will pass but it still makes me wonder what I did to cause my family to pretend that I don't exist.