Who knew?

Wow Ancestry.com is good! I just got an email announcing something new. For a small fee I can explore my traits and see where they come from. As an example they offered freckles and not liking cilantro. I already know freckles are from my father's side, but how did they know I don't like cilantro? I didn't feel like spending more money to find out.

There are a lot of strange things that come through on that site. One thing omitted is my life as a small child. I know I was born in 1937 in Ketchikan, Alaska, followed by a brother's birth 13 months later, but I have no memory of living in Alaska nor the boat trip to Washington State. I find that really odd as I had to have been at least three. It is almost like something wiped out my early memory. Perhaps it was the anesthesia trauma from surgery as a child?

Just kidding

In the 70s I lived in New Laguna, New Mexico and was going to a therapist because I was suffering from anxiety attracts. While in a group I remember one of the questions asked. It was, "how do you think you will die". Interesting huh? Keep in mind this was many years ago. My answer was, in a car accident at 85. I just thought of that and shouted - I was just kidding because I am now 85! At the time it seemed a long ways away.I wonder what my answer would be now. It sure wouldn't be peacefully, surrounded by my family, since most of them don't even speak to me now. I have a feeling there may be more than one family member who will be sorry. Too late!

Unanswered questions

Although I believe in living more than one life I have a problem coming back as a baby. I remember parts of three past lives and that is enough. I know someone who wanted to come back as a healer and I wonder if she will. The thought of living another life starting as a baby just doesn't turn me on. Perhaps I will be a guide?

The other question I have regarding spirits is when a human thinks of them do they know? That thought would be nice but I wonder if their past life is just wiped out and added to their growth?

Moving on

Today is my youngest great grand daughter's 6th birthday. Happy birthday Juliet! She just started kindergarten too. Today is also one month to my first cataract surgery. Since that involves three eye drops four times a day I decided to practice with daily lubricating drops. That's something a former optometrist told me to do anyway. Not looking forward to the cataract drops but it is something everyone going through the surgery has to do to aid healing. It is not the worst thing I have lived through.

New perception

 My ex-husband died in 2016. We were married for 27 years and divorced in 2000.Our only child took charge of his memorial service. It has pissed me off that she completely erased the years we were married and did not once even mention me. It was like 27 years of his life never happened. Our daughter's Godfather replied, "Did she think the stork brought her?"

I recently realized that her actions didn't diminish my existence at all. What it did was tell everyone present who she is.

When we were married my husband had an insurance policy worth $150,000 dollars. I don't know what happened to it but I never saw any of it. Our daughter only got $5,000 dollars at the time of his death.It made me laugh when I remembered that from the divorce I was awarded my house, property and $50,000. I also, years later, got two thousand from a joint account we shared.

I wonder if Karma played a part in this situation?