Just Me

Well here I am at age 87 almost,88. I am wondering what I am supposed to do now. I have had several surgeries, three husbands (all deceased) three children, only one still speaks to me, and four grandchildren, again only one still speaks.

The fact that I am Catholic was an accident. Noting my second husband was and didn't even go to church I decided to join the church as most of his family were Catholics. Biggest mistake I ever made. It brought on panic attacks and really never fit. Previously I had been a member and presiding officer of several Masonic organizations. The office I loved was Chaplain because I always felt I was speaking directly to the Creator. This probably began as a child when I had surgery. I was picked up and carried to the lap of someone who gave me the choice of staying with him or going back to my life. I guess you know which I chose.

Now I am wondering  if I  made a wise choice as I am now trying to recover from my latest surgery. There has got to be some reason for all this. It would be nice if someone would tell me what that is. Why am I still here and what in hell am I supposed to do now?

New appointment

 Well my appointment yesterday resulted in hurry up and wait. There are only two therapy offers in the area now. Looks like I have to wait another week for an appointment at Cibola Hospital. I can't believe Good Sam sent me home with nothing except what I knew from my previous experiences.I guess I did learn a little from the therapy I had there. So time marches on- slowly! I would like to practice with a Cain while I am waiting, but I don't want to fall again and start over.

Miss me yet?

 I have been in and out of health care facilities for a couple of months.I tripped over what I thought was a ladder, but apparently my own feet.  ended up breaking my femur from a previous hip replacement.What a great way to spend the summer! I am now at home, but not free to do what I want. It has been a learning experience for me that I do not want to repeat.

At the moment I am trying to heal and decide what to do next. At first I rejected the idea of a new book. How many can you write in one lifetime? On second thought perhaps there is something new to be offered to my readers.Isn't that why God gives us the same experiences? I need to think about that!

I have an evaluation appointment on Friday so PMS can offer their opinion of where I am. If nothing else I believe I have learned to stand up for myself and not just say okay. Perhaps that is what this was all about? Anyway I will get back to you all when I decide on a future! 

 

Is he dead yet?

I saw this question the other day and there was no need to add a name to it. It is a question I wake every day with.There is really nothing I can do to make it happen. One would think with the thousands and thousands marching against him he would get the idea that it is time for him to go.I can't imagine how it would feel to have that many people marching in protest of me. It makes me wonder if he has any feelings at all, He just keeps sticking his finger up there with a pen attached to sign new orders. It appears that even his current wife has had enough. I would think so! I would think his children would feel the same if it were not for the money that ends up in their pockets.

So I am just one who keeps asking, Is he dead yet? 

Not that

Apparently a bolt of lightening is not going to strike Mr. Trump. I wonder just what the Creator has in store for him before he completely destroys America? I suppose he could still suffer a heart attack or a stroke.That still would not leave anyone responsible, but him. It is a shame that his antics caused such a division with the people. I don't think No Kings Day was meant to be an insult to the military. It was meant to tell Trump enough is enough.I don't know what will stop him, but something had better and soon!

What now?

After seeing a quote yesterday that Trump had finally made God mad, I really thought he would be hit by lightening during the parade this morning.No the jerk is still with us! It would have been perfect and nobody would have been responsible! I don't know how much more crap we will have to deal with before this ends. I would think he has hurt enough people already. Even children, taking away free lunches and deporting people who have done nothing wrong! Will this ever end? 

Trump can blame Biden for whatever he wants to, but at lest he had sense enough to drop out of the race when he noticed his health getting worse. Trump just keeps mouthing off and blaming everyone else for his faults.

Bothered much?

There are two things that really bother me. First Jesus is supposed to be God's only child right? On the other hand we are all supposed to be children of God. Something just doesn't add up! The other thing is about tips. If restaurants paid their employees a living wage tips wouldn't be necessary, but the prices would go up. So any way you look at it the customer pays. It is cheaper to just eat at home and screw the restaurant owners!