Six Months

Today is six months since I tripped over my own feet and ended up in an ambulance on my way to Cibola General Hospital in Grants, New Mexico. I suspect I was given medication to block the pain as I have no memory of the next four days.I know I ended up in Loveless Hospital and my surgery took place on the 25th of July. I broke several bones in the original hip replacement. 

It's been a long six months, with a stay of two weeks in what used to be Good Sam in Grants and therapy at Cibola General Hospital. I still call the facility in Grants Good Sam because that's what it was called when I briefly worked there. At the time  it was my job to provide activities to give the residents money. When I quit I was told by the administrator that I had made more money than anyone else in that job.

I have to admit it was strange to be on the patient side of things. I was grateful when the day came that I was released to go home. It as also strange when it was time to do therapy several times a week at Cibola General Hospital. 

As six months since my surgery is Sunday, I am waiting to see if I will need my walker or cane anymore.

Last Day

Wow the last day of 2025. A couple of days ago a friend told me I need to keep writing because what I had to say was important to others.I appreciate her advice but I don't think so.I have written and published six books and I believe that is enough. They range from 2004 to 2023. I think I would rather just offer occasionally on Facebook.

My books have no doubt covered most of my life and I have manged to piss off most of my relatives. Not bad for one lifetime!

The only thing I haven't written is my fall last July. It landed me in another surgery followed by five months, so far, of various therapies. It is getting better and I am looking forward to walking unaided. I am at the moment cracking up over communication from my only daughter. She apparently thinks I hated myself. Not sure where she came up with that crap, but if she is passing it on to her patient I feel really sorry for them. She also thinks her brother, 18 years her senior,  is simple a friend. All I can say is if were not for his help the last five months would have been impossible. 

Well that's about it for now.Nothing else is new As I said Bernadine I really don't think I will write anymore books! 

wondering

 I am wondering how thousands and thousands of people could march in protest of Trump and he is still here? And if he wasn't? There is his VP, just as bad! Is 2026 going to be any better? I don't see how!

Dreaming

 I woke up really early this morning thinking there was a bill I hadn't paid. The thought wouldn't go away. After I got up I looked through my records to try and figure out what it was. I finally decided I had no records of paying my property tax bill for this year. I a usually very good about keeping records. I could find no proof that I had paid it or could not even find any record of the paperwork.I checked with my son to ask how I could find out if I had paid it. I called the number and ask for the record.

I had not paid this years bill and this was the last day to pay at least half. Apparently I never got the bill in the mail. Something had happened to our mail. This was not the first time either. In my opinion the person who delivers our mail should be fired or at least be taught how to read!  

Just Me

Well here I am at age 87 almost,88. I am wondering what I am supposed to do now. I have had several surgeries, three husbands (all deceased) three children, only one still speaks to me, and four grandchildren, again only one still speaks.

The fact that I am Catholic was an accident. Noting my second husband was and didn't even go to church I decided to join the church as most of his family were Catholics. Biggest mistake I ever made. It brought on panic attacks and really never fit. Previously I had been a member and presiding officer of several Masonic organizations. The office I loved was Chaplain because I always felt I was speaking directly to the Creator. This probably began as a child when I had surgery. I was picked up and carried to the lap of someone who gave me the choice of staying with him or going back to my life. I guess you know which I chose.

Now I am wondering  if I  made a wise choice as I am now trying to recover from my latest surgery. There has got to be some reason for all this. It would be nice if someone would tell me what that is. Why am I still here and what in hell am I supposed to do now?

New appointment

 Well my appointment yesterday resulted in hurry up and wait. There are only two therapy offers in the area now. Looks like I have to wait another week for an appointment at Cibola Hospital. I can't believe Good Sam sent me home with nothing except what I knew from my previous experiences.I guess I did learn a little from the therapy I had there. So time marches on- slowly! I would like to practice with a Cain while I am waiting, but I don't want to fall again and start over.

Miss me yet?

 I have been in and out of health care facilities for a couple of months.I tripped over what I thought was a ladder, but apparently my own feet.  ended up breaking my femur from a previous hip replacement.What a great way to spend the summer! I am now at home, but not free to do what I want. It has been a learning experience for me that I do not want to repeat.

At the moment I am trying to heal and decide what to do next. At first I rejected the idea of a new book. How many can you write in one lifetime? On second thought perhaps there is something new to be offered to my readers.Isn't that why God gives us the same experiences? I need to think about that!

I have an evaluation appointment on Friday so PMS can offer their opinion of where I am. If nothing else I believe I have learned to stand up for myself and not just say okay. Perhaps that is what this was all about? Anyway I will get back to you all when I decide on a future! 

 

Is he dead yet?

I saw this question the other day and there was no need to add a name to it. It is a question I wake every day with.There is really nothing I can do to make it happen. One would think with the thousands and thousands marching against him he would get the idea that it is time for him to go.I can't imagine how it would feel to have that many people marching in protest of me. It makes me wonder if he has any feelings at all, He just keeps sticking his finger up there with a pen attached to sign new orders. It appears that even his current wife has had enough. I would think so! I would think his children would feel the same if it were not for the money that ends up in their pockets.

So I am just one who keeps asking, Is he dead yet? 

Not that

Apparently a bolt of lightening is not going to strike Mr. Trump. I wonder just what the Creator has in store for him before he completely destroys America? I suppose he could still suffer a heart attack or a stroke.That still would not leave anyone responsible, but him. It is a shame that his antics caused such a division with the people. I don't think No Kings Day was meant to be an insult to the military. It was meant to tell Trump enough is enough.I don't know what will stop him, but something had better and soon!

What now?

After seeing a quote yesterday that Trump had finally made God mad, I really thought he would be hit by lightening during the parade this morning.No the jerk is still with us! It would have been perfect and nobody would have been responsible! I don't know how much more crap we will have to deal with before this ends. I would think he has hurt enough people already. Even children, taking away free lunches and deporting people who have done nothing wrong! Will this ever end? 

Trump can blame Biden for whatever he wants to, but at lest he had sense enough to drop out of the race when he noticed his health getting worse. Trump just keeps mouthing off and blaming everyone else for his faults.

Bothered much?

There are two things that really bother me. First Jesus is supposed to be God's only child right? On the other hand we are all supposed to be children of God. Something just doesn't add up! The other thing is about tips. If restaurants paid their employees a living wage tips wouldn't be necessary, but the prices would go up. So any way you look at it the customer pays. It is cheaper to just eat at home and screw the restaurant owners!

Who are you?

I don't understand how Republicans, whether elected, appointed or just voted wrong, can just stand by and watch their country be destroyed by corrupt people. Are they so afraid of retaliation or are they just plain blind to what is going on?

Sugar Cookies

I needed some cookies but didn't feel like going to the store. So......

Sugar Cookies     400 degree oven 10 minutes

2 eggs, beat with a fork

2/3 cup oil 

2 tsp. vanilla

1 tsp.. lemon

3/4 cup sugar

2 cups flour

2 tsp baking powder

1/2 tsp. salt

To egg add oil, vanilla, lemon. Blend in sugar, Add flour, salt & baking powder. Drop with teaspoon 2" apart. Smash with greased glass dipped in sugar. Bake 8-10 minutes.

Sick of Trump

I am so tired of the shit Trump is getting away with. It is hard to believe Republicans are closing their eyes and simply not seeing this crap. Some are even going so far as to say he is the greatest president we have ever had. Seriously? A great president is going to defy the constitution and the court system? All it would really take is for one police officer to arrest him. If Musk was banned from the prison he couldn't interfere this time.I suppose that is too much to hope for! Why in the world would I expect anything good to happen during this administration? 

Happy Mother's Day

I have three children, four grandchildren and three great grandchildren. Of those individuals one son, one grandson and one great grand child communicate. I suppose it could be worse. At least I have a representative from each generation still talking to me.

My first husband was a womanizing jackass, my second husband was a committed alcoholic. To say I have had an easy life would be a joke.It began in Ketchikan, Alaska and moved on down from Washington, California to New Mexico. I like the little town of Grants so I think I will stay. I have had many pets along the way. Skippy, Alfy, Bandit, Pepper, Tippy, Ebony, Smokey, Ejay and Lilly. I think she will be my last.

On this Mother's Day 2025 it is a bit lonely as most of my family do not even speak to me. That is mostly their choice! So I wish my friends a happy Mother's Day instead.

Simple Soup

 With the weather so crazy it is sometimes nice to make a simple soup.

Busy Day Soup

1 # ground beef-brown & drain.(I added a little onion and garlic)

5 cups water

28 oz. diced tomatoes

1 package onion soup mix

Simmer for 1 hour then add-

1 cup macaroni & 1 3/4 cup frozen vegetables, cook for 15 minutes. 

Feel free to add seasonings of your choice.

Democrat or republican?

 I don't consider myself either. In the last election I voted for Harris because I felt Trump was unfit for the office of president. I haven't changed my opinion. Today I cancelled Occupy Democrats from my Facebook posts. I just got tired of all the crap. If Trump is as guilty of half the crap they say he was he would be in prison or a mental institution. He isn't a great president and never has been in my opinion. I have no idea what is going to happen, but something has to change. These lies on both sides have to stop!They are driving everyone crazy!

I don't think Kamala Harris could have made as many mistakes as Trump has. It is probably time we gave a female a chance to govern too.

Catholics

I joined the Catholic church intending it to please my second husband. It was also the reason I had my third child, I thought giving him a child of his own would make him stop drinking. How wrong! He just drank more. My daughter no longer speaks to me and I haven't been a practicing Catholic for 25 years. After my divorce from said husband I no longer wanted to be told how to think and act by men of the cloth. It took a long time for me realize this. I had always had direct communication with God and really didn't need a third party to interfere.   

Survival

Yesterday I survived my first Medicare appointment. After the questions offered by the nurse the nurse practitioner came in to do her thing. I couldn't resist wondering out loud why with thousands marching in protest of Trump he hasn't been assassinated. Her answer was,"he is the president". After thinking about her answer for hours, I had to laugh. In the history of presidents there have been five assassinations. among them Lincoln and JFK. I certainly wouldn't put Trump in that category. In my opinion both Trump and Musk belong in prison for what they have done to the United States, starting with buying the election. My question would be, why is nobody doing anything about that? That started everything. We have never had a president who believes he is God and he can defy the constitution. I hope I live long enough to enjoy the outcome of this crap! 

The NP went on for ten minutes about how great Trump is and stating that everything against him is propaganda and lies. I ended by saying she was entitled to think what she wanted to. I should have added-and so am I!

A question

I wonder if those thousands of people marching against Trump on the weekend of April 6th kept one word (leave) in mind this weekend, would God listen?