Eyes that see

I have always had a problem adding my eye color to questionnaires. They just don't fit because the choices are usually blue, brown and green. My eyes change as if they are responding to moods. Most of the time they are greenish grey and that is not listed as a choice. I just looked at my drivers license and it says green. Apparently, grey was not a choice on the day I answered the question.

As I was reading my current Kindle book, "Mistletoe at Moonglow", I came across a character who had the exact same problem. He really didn't know what his eye color was on any given day. It made me laugh and it also made me feel not quite so weird! 

Black Friday

 Wow this black Friday really does seem like black Friday. Thanksgiving was no different than it has been for the last six years. The only other person in my house is my oldest son. Since my divorce in 1999 I spent fifteen years pretty much alone. Because of the pandemic this year really does seem like blackness of some kind.

I see pictures on Facebook of friends who have spent the holiday with family, no matter what the current rules are. I pray that they all come through this pandemic healthy. Today I am plain sick of this crap. 

Happy Thanksgiving

 Wishing you all a Happy Thanksgiving! Please take the time to think about all the things and people you are thankful for. Things will get better, they have to. 

 

Abundance

I have never considered myself rich by any means, but lately I am re-assessing this thought. The news is full of people who don't even have food to eat or a safe place to sleep. They literally don't know how they will survive another day. This pandemic has ripped away the livelihood of people who thought their lives were pretty secure. I have no idea what this is supposed to prove, but I am grateful that I am not one of those people.

I am not rich but my house and car are paid for, I have a Social Security income that won't change much, have excellent credit and owe no one anything. I learned at a very young age not to live above my income.

I remember years ago reading somewhere that if you have more than you need at the end of the day, you have abundance.

Time for gratitude

While watching a friend's podcast this morning I was inspired to use gratitude as the subject for today's post. I asked myself what am I most grateful for?

There are several things that came to my mind. For instance, fairly good health, A comfortable home. enough to eat, friends, enough money to live fairly well and my gift of writing. That really isn't what I am most grateful for though.

That would be people. Since my very first breath people have been part of my life. There were first my parents and other relatives, the hospital staff, neighbors, playmates, classmates, friends, people in stores and on the street, coworkers. You name it and I had contact with all of them. People of all color, races and beliefs. Thinking about all the people I have had contact with since the first day of my life really is mind boggling.

It is also mind boggling to realize that no two of these people are exactly alike. Everyone, from their first breath to their last are on their own. I am most grateful to have been created to be counted as one of those people.

Holiday shopping

I just spent the morning shopping online for gifts. It is kind of cool to shop in my pajamas in front of my computer. Actually I began my shopping experience yesterday. My birthday is in a couple of weeks so I thought I might as well get myself a gift to mark the day. So I checked out my closet and decided to purchase a couple of new tops, one in heather blue and the other in heather grey. The grey one replaces a sweatshirt I have had for twenty years, celebrating a long past local Quad on our Mt. Taylor. I figured it was past time to put it to rest.

This morning I found a special Christmas book for my youngest great granddaughter. It is called, Santa's Christmas With a Mask, and will no doubt be a collectors item someday. I will probably tuck in a gift card.

I have been trying to figure out something for my son, who lives with me. He is one of those people who has everything and keeps ordering from Amazon. The UPS delivery guy comes so often I am sure he thinks he is part of the family by now. Anyway, I did find something that I think will work on the Amazon Black Friday page. While I was there I decided to accept the 30 day free trial of Prime. Hey, who wants to pay an extra charge for shipping? Not me. I expect to cancel it after the free time is up. Don't tell anyone at Amazon!

My holiday shopping list has been cut way down as most of my wonderful family no longer accepts the fact that I am still alive. Oh well, their loss! Happy holidays everyone!

 

Be present in the present

While reading a new Kindle book last night I came across a passage that caught my eye. It was; You can't worry about what comes next until you let the now happen. It  reminded me of the message Eckhart Tolle shared in his book, A New Earth. Be present in the now. 

In this pandemic we are all living in I think people tend to worry about tomorrow instead of doing everything they can to stay safe today. Worrying about tomorrow can and does cause anxiety. I know, I spent 15 years of my life suffering from panic attacks. In my case I now believe it was, at least partly due to a chemical imbalance, but once they start it is hard to stop them. 

I think the only control anyone has is right now. Just think of all the good things in your life and be grateful for them. Don't compare yourself with anyone else. They are not living your life. You are.

Don't worry about tomorrow, just do your best to live today!